Aurora Comes Home

January 17, 2007

Today Aurora arrived at our little home. I have been reminded of my old fascination with the way some things are impossible to photogaph. Lots of beautiful moments pass one by.. little firsts and odd realizations. Some will live in our memory.. and some will be forgotten. And the camera catches only the marginal moments.. times when one happens to think of the camera.. when one thinks: whoops, looks like we are going so I better get a picture now.

One thing to now about Aurora is that she is tiny. She is a perfect and beautiful baby.. but so small! So many of the little outfits which we were given now look huge to us. We laugh and wonder when in the world our little daughter will be able to fit into something so cavernous? But they do grow fast.. I have been told.

Looking at such a tiny baby it is hard not to try and imagine how she will turn out. I try to imagine a sequence of images and the changes that will happen to that little face.. like those people on YouTube who take a picture of themselves every day for a lengthy period of time and then stitch them together. And more important than physical looks is the inner person that she will become.. what will that look like in ten years? twenty years? But whatever the eventual answers to these questions I think my job is to love her for who she is.. and who she becomes. She is not going to be set out into the world as some conqueror or genius.. She has not been born to rub my ego or to give me bragging rights. She is just our tiny Aurora, loved for herself alone.. always.